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Friday, May 16th, 2008
by Tony
I’ve been in a somber mood as of late. Money has been tight like wearing a medium t-shirt, I’ve been trying to move without having found a place to move into and the boyfriend has non-existent in my life for the last couple weeks. And the realization that I haven’t had any ass since December ‘07 is making my dick mad at me.
That suicide is painless, it brings on many changes, and I can take or leave it if I please…
For the last month and a half, I’ve been staying a friend’s house in the city. And I’m so grateful that he’s opened up his home to me, but I feel so fucked up about the situation. There’s something about a grown ass man sitting up in another grown ass man space like he lives there. Also I really don’t know how I can express my gratitude without forking over a wad of cash. Again money is tight.
That suicide is painless, it brings on many changes, and I can take or leave it if I please…
In the time that I’ve been staying with my friend, I’ve started taking the bus to work. At first I did this because, I was without my car for 3 weeks because bad brakes but now with gasoline running about $4:15 a gallon, I been hopping on good ol’ PACE and CTA. And while public transportation is a good thing, its great for the environment but them bastards made me late to work on several occasions. Late clock-ins mean less money.
That suicide is painless, it brings on many changes, and I can take or leave it if I please…
Boredom has a grip on me. I spend most my time of, either packing or watching progress bars. Bit Torrent has become my new best friend and fuck buddy. The amount of music and porn I’ve download, I mean obtain is scary. I’ve broke the 10,000 mark for music tracks in iTunes and my porn collection has officially because criminal. Essentially I’ve barded my porn to my friend to stay at his place. He’s actually watched one move a night, just about every night I’ve been at his place and he has yet to reach the end of the collection or watch the same movie twice. That’s how much porn I have now. I know I need help.
That suicide is painless, it brings on many changes, and I can take or leave it if I please…
Saturday, March 15th, 2008
by Tony
I’ll be the first to admit that I’m doing wrong, and I have. Essentially my last few posts have had no substance and its entirely my doing. I sit here everyday and knowing I have a ton of shit to say, I just can not put it into words. Sitting here now, I’m holding back because I need to get shit off my chest, but I’m feeling extremely exposed. So should I be super-vague, use confusing pronouns and leave the reader with an overall feeling of “WTF is this nigga doing?” or do I lay it out on the table and done with it? Maybe for the sake of sanity…
Work is essentially what the noun says it is… it’s work. I love what I do, but it’s getting harder and harder to get up and go. There are days where I don’t want to leave my bed. But I’m not depressed or anything, but I have this overall feeling that I need to be in bed. I guess its hard to articulate this feeling.
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Tuesday, January 29th, 2008
by Tony
Its almost been two months and where have I been? The short answer: Everywhere and Nashville! Since Thanksgiving my car, the Mean Green Piece ‘O’ Shit Machine, died on me twice. The first time the fuel pump went out, and 3 weeks later it was the starter that died. I was use the drive to Schaumburg, but evidently the Neon was not. So for a Christmas gift to myself I went out a got a 2002 silver 2nd generation Neon. Me and my Mopar. It has low milage and only cost me 7 grand. Its nice, but its not that PS3 and souped MacBook Pro I wanted.
Work is going great. Right after the holiday season ended I had got transfered to another Apple Store. I’m at new store thats a little smaller than Woodfield and a lot more closer to home. I’ve been spending the last couple of weeks getting use to the clientele and I think I’m definitely going to like Orland Square Mall. Now only if they had a better food court.
On the personal front, I’ve started dating again and I’m a couple of weeks strong into a good thing. Its really refreshing to have someone who actually wants to communicate and genuinely cares. If i can only get them to play GH3 with me, it would be great.
Tuesday, October 23rd, 2007
by Tony
Its another video podcast from yours truly… Essentially its several minutes of playing catch up. Enjoy! BTW I cancelled my T-Mobile account and got AT&T… sorry Chris.
Monday, July 23rd, 2007
by Tony
Like I said earlier, it’s been about 53 days since my last post, and while a lot of shit has been happened, I just didn’t have any time to sit down and write it all out. So I guess since I’m sitting here at work on a night shift (Again) with nothing excited to do but listen to the hum of a file server back up I could detail my Summer so far…After my last rejection notice from iCompany, I put the job hunt on hold. I was still getting requests to go out on interviews with various companies but at the time my heart was just not into it. So I settled back into work, playing Tomb Raider Anniversary and trying to date which was great until NIPSCO decided to show it nuts again and disconnected my power. To that all I can say is never believe anything a CS rep will tell you over the phone. Do everything in person, people are less likely to blatantly lie to your face. In spite of all this adversary, I kept my head up. I spent the two weeks without power going to the gym, going to the movies, going out to dinner with friends. Now before anyone starts asking how I was able to do all if I can’t pay my bill, truth be told, my Power bill is roughly $130 a month due to a payment plan where you only pay a fix amount until your anniversary date. On June 11th I got my bill for $130 before the taxes and on June 18th my power was off and I owed NIPSCO $1150. Apparently NIPSCO reserves the right to turn off you power at anytime without notice it also seems they have to right to completely butt-ream their customers too. But I digress. So in light of that, I had money I just didn’t have $1200 sitting around and I intended on enjoying myself, because I wasn’t going to get depressed over this.I tried to go to Chicago Pride this year and I really wish I could I enjoyed myself. But after walking around for a few minutes watching lesbians set up some type of shanty town and ‘girls’ popping their gum and applying another layer of sparkle lip gloss, I was too through and just went home. I enjoyed myself a little more at Windy City Black Pride. Spent the day passing out bags of candy with my Fraternity’s info on the side. But it became more somber the next day as I found out that one of my chapter Brothers who had just crossed this spring, Anthony, had passed.
Friday, May 4th, 2007
by Tony
Been fairly occupied lately. First, I have been interviewing for a new job with iCompany. I’ve already had two interviews that went really well and I was informed yesterday that my background check was finish. I’m still a little raw about Purdue giving the wrong information. since I had to jump through hoops to prove that the start and end dates on my resume were correct. Hopefully I’ll know by next week if I can have a pretentious sounding job title or not.Second, I’ve been doing a shit load of work for Kappa Psi Kappa. Trying to handle all the decisions made during our last conference, trying to handle the massive changes that just happen, trying to keep with strategic plan for the region, recruit and still trying to be an effective leader and brother. I’m not entirely sure if I want to stay in this position come July or not. And its not because I don’t think I can do the job, I’m just not sure if I’m actually making a difference.And third, I found a company that will overnight pork products, which is really no big surprise since there are companies like Carson’s but what I’ve been ordering lately is:
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