emotions
Monday, January 25th, 2010
by Tony
I saw this AOL throwback on twitter and it actually got me in the mood to write something. After writing it, I realize how ultimately depressing it seems and that was so not my intention. So while there are many negatives list below please know that I’m staying positive and keeping my head up. Here’s the breakdown;
Age – I turn 30 this year, yet I don’t feel like that much time has past since I turned 21. But then it hit me, I came across one of my little cousins Facebook page. I distinctly remember going to one of his an his twin sister’s 6th or 7th birthday parties as a kid. He’s in his twenties now, in college and pledged Phi Beta Sigma. Feels like everyone is growing up but me. I’m still sitting around reading comics, watching Spongebob and playing video games while everyone else is living, getting careers being ADULTS. Continue reading »
Saturday, December 26th, 2009
by Tony
I don’t know what to do with you.
You’re never there when I call and you act like you can’t call anybody back.
Showing up a day late, a dollar short, acting as if you did no wrong.
You promised to be my rock, my port in the storm, but constantly heeding to the beckon calls of other people.
Left behind I had to do without you, but I kept my head above the water and I did what I could to survive.
You may not like the choices I had to make, or looked at my past with slight contempt. You were suppose to be there and be at my side but you weren’t.
I’ve loved you for so long and I’ve never been sure if you truly loved me back.
I’ve heard the pretty words, the hope and the promises but I know that they’ve been told to others.
And yeah, I know about the others. I’ve known for some time, the love, affection and devotion they flaunt is a little hard to not notice, but I loved you and let it slide.
I loved you for so long and I’ve never been sure if you truly loved me back…
I wonder if other people sit and ponder “Does God love me?”
Friday, November 6th, 2009
by Tony
Still here and still keeping my head above the water…
Sunday, September 21st, 2008
by Tony
Monday, May 12th, 2008
by Tony
I love these fools, They can take me from a complete shitty day, to forgetting why I was I carrying that sniper rifle up to the clock tower.
Things have been severely hectic lately on all fronts. I’m finally moving to the city. While its not under the best circumstances, I’m actually looking forward to living in the city for once. I can go back to be a city boy again, I just need to find a place by the end of the month. Finances have been weird as well, but I blame that on gasoline being $4.15. And relationship wise has had its up and downs. Life has been truly stressful, but I’m still here and still standing.
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