emotions

Things We Do For Love

Sunday, September 21st, 2008
by Tony

In the interest of keeping personal issues, personal I was ask to password protect the previous entry.

Protected: Song Cry pt. 2

Sunday, September 21st, 2008
by Tony

Song Cry

Sunday, September 21st, 2008
by Tony

They’re The Real Deal

Monday, May 12th, 2008
by Tony

I love these fools, They can take me from a complete shitty day, to forgetting why I was I carrying that sniper rifle up to the clock tower.

Things have been severely hectic lately on all fronts. I’m finally moving to the city. While its not under the best circumstances, I’m actually looking forward to living in the city for once. I can go back to be a city boy again, I just need to find a place by the end of the month. Finances have been weird as well, but I blame that on gasoline being $4.15. And relationship wise has had its up and downs. Life has been truly stressful, but I’m still here and still standing.

Why Do We Do The Things We Do

Saturday, March 29th, 2008
by Tony

Why do we do the things we do, is it for love?
Do we say ‘I Love You’ because it seems like the right thing to do?
Do we feel obligated because we weren’t the first to utter those words?
Do we hope that you’re doing well or do we think that we’re just being ignored?
Why do we call, knowing you won’t answer?
Why do we do the things we do, maybe we don’t know any better?
Do we watch the phone ring because we’ve been hurt in the past?
Do we put up walls to keep those who love us away?
Why do we take people for granted, knowing they won’t always be there?
Why do we do the things we do, are we afraid?
Do we think so highly of your feelings that we hurt them inadvertently?
Do we think that pretty words, half-truths are the same as being honest?
Why do we care?
Why do we think such trivial things?
Why do we long for your touch, but hate the why you make us feel?
Why do we do the things we do?

And Like That, He Was Gone

Sunday, March 2nd, 2008
by Tony

The Confession

Wednesday, December 5th, 2007
by Tony

I need to confess something that I’ve been holding in for sometime and its time that I let the world know. I had fallen for someone and it truly affected how I thought, how I spoke and had I acted in my every day life. But like the says goes, “You shouldn’t make some a priority when you’re not even an option.” So why come out with all of this? Why now? Well I’ve come to a point where I need to move on and get over this. Hopefully bearing my soul will free me from the trance they have on me. Love is a powerful thing and I loved the Captain. 

Yeah, I need some time to get my head straight… 

Portrait of The Broken-Hearted

Monday, November 12th, 2007
by Tony

What happens when every song you hear reminds you of them? Every rational thought tells you that should not feel this way but you do anyway. Their presence makes me weak and yet I need to be strong. For I can’t have them and that is why I cry myself to sleep.

Human Burnout

Friday, June 1st, 2007
by Tony

So I had a third interview with iCompany yesterday, just this time it was at a second location. And the manager asked me a question I put no thought in the answer. After been given my interview history by the iCompany recruiter, and knowing I’ve interviewed at a few different locations, the manager asked if I was tired from interviewing for all these different positions within iCompany. Without skipping a beat I responded ‘Of course not, I want to work for iCompany’ (sounds pretty needed, right?). I figured if I really wanted the job bad enough, I would do as many interviews it took til I got it. Of course this was all before I got the rejection email this afternoon:

Anthony,Thank you for your interest in an opportunity with iCompany. At this time we have chosen to move ahead with candidates who better meet the business needs today. We wish you the best in your future endeavors.Thank you again for your time and interest in iCompany.

Unfortunately, you can only hear ‘No’ so many times before you stop trying. And maybe I’ve reach that point. It seems difficult to find positions that are within my experience level that can also meet my salary requirements. And with iCompany, I expected a cut in pay and an hour commute but in the long run and in the search of sanity and ideal work hours, it seemed not only like a sure thing but a good thing. Yesterday was the ninth interview I’ve had in 2 months, and at this point I am tired of interviewing not only just tired, but damn near burnt out.

Lesson Learned

Monday, May 14th, 2007
by Tony

Just because he seems to like you, that doesn’t mean he does…And just because the interviews went well ,that doesn’t mean you’ll get the job.