The Negatives

Tuesday, June 27th, 2006
by Tony

Been doing a lot of thinking lately. Don’t worry, I haven’t hurt myself yet. But in the last week or two I’ve had a few conversations that made me realize that people dwell too much on the negative things in life and I’m a culprit of focusing on negativity myself.

This past weekend, one of my fraternity brothers came into town for a relative’s graduation. I spent a lot of time trying to get my other brothers to spend with him so I wouldn’t. Even though I find my brother to be annoying, he is still my frat and he deserved better. While I did take him out to dinner, I was rather short with him for most of the night and when he wanted to go to the Generator, I cutted the night short and went home. I Am not My Brother’s Keeper. That same night I had a talk with Drrrl about Chicago Gay Pride since it was this past weekend but more in particular previsous Windy City Black Prides and the obvisious shade being thrown by the attendees. Why is that overall purpose of WCBP (building community) is overshadowing by stank attitudes? Needless to say, the Delta Chapter of Kappa Psi Kappa Fraternity Inc. will be in attendance and either volunteering or have some type of booth at WCBP this summer.

Something else I realized this past week was the lost of several people close to me. Whether by passing or moving, I can no longer spend the time I would with them. Several folks have reveal their intentions of moving away from Chicago and I felt so devastated by it. I’m so use to having them around and when you care for people that much, when they leave it hurts because I know that things will never be the same. But I ‘m dwelling on the negativies. Instead of seeing it as an oppurtunity for my friends to better themselves or to seek a better path in life, I focus on the downside that pertain to me. EJ told that I’m allowed to be selfish with my friends, but it still doesn’t make it right.

On a positive note, I did run into several associates who I haven’t seen in awhile at Pride this year. I also got to see my little brother Tracy aka Gotti aka Tracy Escada walk runway.